Shotgun Rider

So it's been a hot minute since my last post. I'm not going to throw my overflowing can of worms at anybody, but I've had a few good reasons, which were accompanied by a few new thoughts.

For one, I'm moving into my own apartment soon- like, by myself. This new change is definitely going to be something that takes some adjusting, seeing as I've lived with Logan for two years. Thankfully, the apartment is roomy and close to town and blah, blah, blah. In all honesty, I'm just excited to decorate it.

Secondly, I'm starting a whole new chapter in my life. I think. I don't know if it would be considered a whole new chapter or just the turn of a page. I'm going to start thinking about myself and my health and happiness, because I feel like I deserve at least that much.

For the past couple months, I've been riding in the passengers seat of a car I'm supposed to be driving. It feels like I'm head south at 100 miles an hour when I really want to be going north. Not to mention, the thick fog makes it next to impossible to see where this winding road will take me next.

I've thought about getting out. I've stopped a couple times to stretch my legs. But no matter what, I get back in and start down that same road again. Not this time.

Taking control of your life isn't something that's easy to do. Control, in a sense, is just an illusion. We perceive that we dictate what happens in our lives, and that really isn't true it all. We can't control events, but we can control how we react to them. And if this event creates a situation we don't want to be in, our reaction essentially boils down to two options: examine or express.

1 John 1:8 says, 'If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us.' Now, I'm not necessarily talking about sin here, but replace that word with 'troubles'. Lord knows we all got troubles, but it's up to us to either sit back and examine them, or express outwardly our concerns.

Expression comes in the form of both words and actions. Luke 11:9 reads, 'And I tell you, ask, and it will be given to you, seek, and you will find, knock, and it will be opened to you.' The key in this scripture is the first word of each phrase. Ask. Seek. Knock. Action brings reaction.

So, pretty much I'm encouraging all of you to take control. Don't sit in that passengers seat. Take the wheel and utilize your authority to create your own happiness. Pray every day for the courage and strength to employ your power over you.

For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control. 

2 Timothy 1:7